I love you, Cookie, forever...

Cookie went over the rainbow bridge this morning. He was eight years and seven months old.

Cookie (1 May 2001 - 5 December 2009)

As some of you may be aware of, Cookie had not been well since he started showing some pain in July. But, we didn't know the real cause of the pain and his progressive wobbliness until he had an MRI scan in late September, which revealed that he had an inoperable brain tumor with hydrocephalus and syringomyelia.

At that time we were told that Cookie didn't have much time left, but he bravely fought a good fight against the illnesses for the next two months, being on medication with Tramal (pain reliever) and Prednison (synthetic corticosteroid). He lost his appetite a little a couple of times in October, but, otherwise, he was eating very well and could walk around in the house and garden on his own with a wobbly gait.

However, last night he deteriorated dramatically. He bawled every time I touched him to adjust his pillow. He clenched his jaw and didn't open his month at all when I tried to help him drink or eat.

We were worried about him so much that all of us, including Cinnamon, slept in the living room together as we didn't want to put him in further pain by moving him. Cookie kept shivering from pain throughout the night, and in the morning he still couldn't move at all. So, we made the most difficult decision to let him go. We thought he had suffered enough and he should be let free from his pain.

His last moment was serene. He went in my arms. Cookie, we will never forget about you. You will live forever in our heart.